The last three days have been pretty scary. I have a new symptom that I've never experienced before. When I eat the roof of my mouth and back of my throat feels like it is on fire. Because of this, I haven't eaten much the last three days. The pain is so bad that it brings me to tears. I mean it's intense pain! I contemplated going to the ER last night, but with no health insurance at the moment, and going down to part time at work, the idea of a huge emergency bill turned me off.
So instead of going to the doctor I did the next best thing and started searching the internet. It seems to me that I am experiencing what is called Trigeminal Neuralgia. Apparently though only 4% of people with MS experience this symptom. Sucks that it had to happen me. Hopefully it goes away for good, but from other things I have read it usually comes and goes. I'm also not a doctor, so maybe I'm wrong, but from what people are saying it is the exact pain I am feeling.
That's how I have been feeling physically, emotionally is a whole another story. I've been feeling really depressed lately. I think that things have just gotten harder for me recently and it's taking a toll on my optimism. I've given up on a lot because of this stupid disease and I hate it. I really have things that I need to work on, and hopefully my MS will allow me to do that.
Also, I just wanted to share that while I was messing around, looking at some other blogs and MS articles, I came across this thing called the Spoon theory. It's basically a story explaining what it feels like to have an "invisible disease". I think that it is helpful in understanding diseases that are not always easy to understand and it is worth reading.